Tuesday, May 20, 2008

A Mental High

The feeling repulsive, but at the same time, calming.
The mental pain, needing aid, calling.
I don't want to help, I don't want this feeling to stop.
My knees buckling. About to drop.
I stand knowing I have the strength.
But fall, knowing the pain inside will someday sink.
It will detonate my mind destroying any thoughts of this.
Doing nothing, but creating one big dent.
Fixable, not fixable, but still needing that extra cent,
extra push, to get it started so it can be at normal level.
In a dazed state. Eyes half open.
Unable to move, but hoping, that someone will help.
Get you moving, get you up to pace.
Just enough to be able to compete in the race.
So hard to define, but easy to defy.
A mental high.

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