Hold On

You said hold on, don't let this go to your head.
I look back, at all the things you haven't read.
All the hours I put into feeling and thinking about you.
All the times we had together, wasted. So few.
Together, but with out you. Flying colors, your different hue.
You can't help me. You can't stop the pain.
I wish you could see, the sad boy I became.
Stare into my eyes, and tell me you don't see anything.
Look at me. Look at the pity before scene.
The final act in the performance. The ending.
Get a good look girl, you were pretending.
You were acting to be someone you weren't.
To steal my act, my performance. I learned.
My life, my joy, my love, burned.
Gone, you destroyed the records.
Did go back and take a look at the result afterwards?
No. This road has to many curves.
I don't know where it goes. Show me.
You didn't show me the map. I couldn't see.
I have to make a U-turn on this 2 lane,
Take back all the steps I took and became.
The hard part is getting started.
Help me turn the wheel, so we can be for ever apart.

Our Love's Remote

Play. The sound of drum rolls playing in my mind.
Stop. The start of leaving friendship behind.
Rewind. The experience so hard to find.
My arm extends to find it's place.
Knowing exactly where to go, and keeping pace.
The warmth already feeling within my skin.
My fingers gently touch your surface. We begin.
The entertainment playing, we have no interest.
I try to hold it back but I can't resist.
My arm gently holding your soft arm,
bringing you closer to me, protecting you from harm.
The fabric in your shirt I brush against my fingers,
you fail you notice, wile your mind lingers.
I look at the screen of the seemingly blank TV.
I look at you, your beauty, it makes me so happy.
I can't stop staring at your gentle face.
I close my eyes, as I think, and fall into a haze.
Thinking of you. Only you.
The girl I love. The girl who loves me back. Only few.
Only few are like you. So many trying.
I compliment you, but your humble, and keep denying.
Open. Your head now resting upon my chest.
So calm. So beautiful. I watch as you rest.
Hours. I could sit with you for hours.
Would you sit with me love?
The moments we both lived together, ours.

Every Moment Spent Well

I'm always thinking of you. Always loving you.
I want to hold you, Forever and ever. Why so few?
Why so few times we get the chance to share our feelings?
So young they say. Not ready for love. Uncontrollable feelings.
I can't hold them back. You seem to be having them.
Why do they hold us back? We have yet to begin.
Soon, very soon my love, we will together at least for a wile.
Until then, your all I think of. Your beautiful smile.
So delicate, with so little might,
you put in to making my entire night.
Just us two. Me holding you. Lovely memories of us.
Shared with each other, and later we discuss,
what we did, just to make each other smile again.
We have yet to begin my love.
Every moment I spend with you, is a moment spent well.
No regrets. We waited until we fell.
Until we fell for each other within the pit of love and desire.
The warm signals you send remind me of your fire.
The things that dwell within you until we meet once more.
I find them hidden in the deepest part, the core. Your heart.
Every moment is a moment spent well, with you.

Around You

I look across, I see your beautiful self.
I want to just go ahead, have you to myself.
I reach to put my arm around you,
you move your head, as I sign that I can pass through.
Through the barrier of friends, and onto lovers.
Leaving it behind, and wanting no other, but you.
My fingers gently touching the surface of your skin.
Thinking about what we used to be back then.
When we were friends, nothing but.
Now I love you, and you love me. A cleared rut.
Moved away all of the mixed emotions, and added the heart.
The feeling of love, the knowing of feeling part.
Part of you, part of your world.
Your mine, no one else's, my one true girl.
The cotton of your shirt, smooth against my arm.
Protecting you from danger, any kind of harm.
Holding you. The feeling of completeness.
Everything that makes me happy, except the kiss.
You turn your head, I look into your precious eyes.
I wait for the ok, and watch you smile.
Simple, pure, lovely. The words I choose to describe it.
The wonderful vibe, I get from being at your side.
Us two. Alone. The world is ours. The time is ours.
Fully, meaningfully, I feel your heartbeat, as we sit for hours.

Fire Of Desire

Warmth from the heat.
Light from the fire.
I have to come to my final defeat,
the defeat of my desire.
How much I long for the things that will never come.
How they sit inside my thoughts, and I come undone.
I loose my mind. My every will to go on.
Live on. Continue as a pawn.
No sense of importance. No recognition.
A mental fence. Give me the definition.
Something holding me back. Something keeping me out.
It's something I lack. Let out everything. Shout.
The decibel causing weakness of the mind.
But letting out what it was holding behind, this closed gate.

The Ultimate Drug Love

Intoxicated with the essence of love.
It makes me think things never thought of.
Filling my lungs and leaving a mark,
beginning the process, but no where to start.
No more room in your mind for others,
you think of yourself, just another.
The joint of lust and temptation.
Filling my mouth with condensation.
Touch of skin, cotton of your shirt.
My arm around your shoulder. I feel like dirt.
Once this over, will you care?
Or will you go with another, and treat him unfair.
Smoke another, throw away the ashes.
Unstoppable love, avoid the crashes.
The ultimate drug. Love. Why can't it last?

Battle Of Love

This terrible battle is done.
Our bloodshed brothers have help us won.
Fought for me. Helped me.
Aided my wounds, helped me see.
The sword kissing my skin, but breaking heart.
The shield protecting me, but its falling apart.
Weakened by every touch of her sword.
Temptation, falling after ever point scored.
Every man down, every heart broke.
Every dream shattered, that you helped provoke.
Blood waiting to be shed by your lies.
I see nothing but loneliness in your eyes.
Now dimmed from the brightness you used to have.
Turned against from this love-like rehab.
Why didn't you choose my side?
There is no where to hide, from the pain you set aside.
This soul is now alive.

Nothing Much

You've got your gun to my head.
Unable to act. Remember what you said?
Things change. I changed?
Evidently. I was blamed.
Screwed up. Messed up. The state you left me.
Move along nothing to see.
Pass me by. You see. You ignore.
You know I was left on the floor.
Unnoticed. Uncared for.
Dust, crumbs, dirt. My friends.
That's what you see in them. This ends.
This addiction for your touch.
What I am now. Nothing much.
My love is dead. You have it, but its useless.
Be careful, you can be careless.
Then again, you can't use it, its worthless.
Stare at it. Touch it. Try to understand it.
You can't, we weren't the right fit.

Unholy

We stand on this ball of ground,thinking, where is he to be found?
When I do see him, what will I do?
Will I speak? Will my words be few?
I am unholy compared to the only god.
Will he let me enter? Will he see me as a fraud?
He is my god. The only.
How holy? How holy am I?

Who Is On My Side

Where are my friends? Where is my family?
I'm lost is this world of sin, it's just me.
Alone, so alone. So Misunderstood.
I want to be known, if only I could.
Not fame, not riches,
just my name, just these wishes.
Listen to me. Hear me.
You hear nothing, you won't let yourself see.
Is anyone on my side? Does anyone care?
I have no one to rely, this doesn't seem fair.