Enter My Mind

Come back into my heart.
Don't leave me in different parts.
You did before, and I fear what for.
Why did you do this to me then?
Did I deserve the torturous beatings you gave me?
You wouldn't let me die, mentally or physically.
This time I see you with the welcoming of many.
Of many unbroken hearts, and needing times.
The times I need to recover from unspoken rhymes.
So lead me not into temptation,
but deliver me from evil.
For thine is the power of love and confrontation.
Enter my heart and leave me full.
Hallowed be thy Name.
Sacred love found, and needed love came.
Now with consideration, love enters the mind.

Stopped Intoxicating

For at least a while, these toxins seem to hold.
Only doing it to see a smile that is now seeming old.
Keeping me well. Keeping me normal.
I stop. Physical hell. These friends seem formal.
Wake up to reality and see the light of normality.
All the wrong memories of all the wrong things.
Seem to follow my trail. I wait to see who it brings.
People I don't even know, forcing these chemicals.
Now needing this help. Real drugs are for fools.
Ask for help, spend the time. Get help, pay the money.
My brain seeming fried, no longer seeming funny.
No longer can I enjoy these substances.
Knowing they will affect the circumstances.
Nothing matters. Leave me be.
No more love, seemingly.

Unthinkable

Throbbing through the never ending days.
It stings the soul with a sharp blade.
No questions. I can't tell myself to care.
I can't make myself care. Nothing new in the air.
Breathing to stay. Staying live.
Living to help. Helping to give.
Innocent enough, I fall into the pressure.
My ears ache and pop from the height.
Above the ground, I see above your mind.
Above your thoughts. Above and behind.
Realize I'm more than one who judges
An intruder. I know you. I don't hold grudges.
I scream. My lungs flow with the power of love.
I just wish, there was someone above.
To see right through me. To see my knowledge.
To show everyone I can surpass the mere existence of life.
Still confused by my logic, you read on.
Read this. Read it again. On and on.
Stop. Think about it.
Illiterately enough, you think you understand.
But I'm the only one playing in this one man band.
Get into my head. I explain it.
You listen carefully harshly abused by my words.
The vocab from my heart spills into the deepest feelings.
Help? Thank-you for trying.
But at the moment, I'm the one lying.
Never being able to express this.
Never having the truth in my face.
I see flaws. I see mistakes.
I dare not speak, for my words seem fake.
Untold to your mental self esteem.
Emotions speaks for us all.
Emotion.
They burn in the night.
Devouring maximum flammability.
Overcoming the tallest flame, they crackle.
Listen.
Listen to flames. Burn me to death.
Hurting every unit of life I've built.
Let the flames die. Put them out
of their misery.

Confusion Compressed In Love

Confusing love. Lovingly confused.
The power of love, wrongfully abused.
Understand the basics of compassion.
Then try to comprehend the bold caption.
The text that needs to be understood.
No one understands, no one could.
The power of love compels the human soul.
Love is needed, pain is simply cold.
Unwanted. Unneeded. Exists to show you it's there.
The mixture of mind and personal affection.
The power of protection and mental deflection.
The feeling of great compassion soon brings emotional extraction.
The end relationship sealed with the essence of truth.
Careful now. One chance to take it in.
Pay attention and be sure to listen.
Spilling my heart. Every bit of love compressed.
Squeezed into the tiny form of communication we call words.
All of my feelings soon expressed into verbs.
Let it flow from your heart and reflect in your eyes.
You try to hide the words like some clever disguise.
Reveal them to me love. Show me the real feeling.
Always here, awaiting your talk of me.
Awaiting the talk of your life.
The blind-spots you can't see. Here's a light.

Untitled

Dreaming quietly only to be disturbed by the scenes you send.
Hard lit image of your face, seen too much. Help me bend.
Help me get over the long grudge of lost love. Tell me you miss me.
Do you know what I am thinking of? Let me tell you, maybe then, you will see.
Pain. Without your godforsaken warmth and love, I crumble.
I can't hold on to myself. The thought of you makes me fumble.
I dreamt of an empty room, you and me. I burst out my true feelings.
I'm so sorry. I'm so very sorry. My emotions peeling.
I look at your face. Unable to describe it, like I've done so many times before.
You give me a similar look. The exact one you gave me on The Night.
The night we shed our feelings, our opinions, from each others sight.
The look you gave me, before you kissed me. Before you kissed me.
Look at me. I've gone insane from just the mere thought of your scent.
I reach out to hug you. I care about you. I love you.
Not the same as I did, but friendly love. What friends go through.
Kill me. Kill me now. Take my soul. I don't want to live this hell.
I've crashed, broken down. I can't go on. I fell from your grasp.
You let me go. I loosened my grip, for you. Forget my name.
Forget what I became, after you destroyed the boy you once loved.
I'm so sorry.

I wrote this before the date posted.