Another Wasted Love

Step outside. Feel the cold my love. My one.
Look towards the sky, above yet gone,
is the one thing we've waited so long for.
Time to know one another. Time to hold each other.
Time to fall for each other. Time to feel one another.
Dry as the air we inhale, is my lonesome heart.
Taking more in, only becoming further apart.
Oh my god, let me love her until my mind crashes.
Pick up the stakes, drive them into me, creating gashes.
Frigidness overcoming my self control.
Sending shivers down my body, you save me from the cold.
Your arms around my waist. Your hands gripping my ribs.
Lay your head upon my skin, as my body shifts.
You try to rid the cold with the warmth you hold.
You're shivering, she says. Lips unable to move.
Right after this girl, I will accept the rage of depression.
No way of communication, I show desolation.
My heart crumbles beneath the body of nothing.
You're not here keeping me up. Crumbling.
These few words rip my throat apart with aggression,
as I slowly fall into the heartfelt trap of depression.
Soon unable to speak from continuous weep.
These words haunt my mind, continuing to reap.
My eyes grow fond of the printed paper.
A photograph containing beauty, I hold my temper.
God, these hands contain rough callouses.
Working the shift for you, I realize instances.
Her love controlling my love of you.
Makes me ask myself, if my heart of you, is true.
But dear Lord, enter thy heart with your presence.
Show me you're here. Your very existance.
Crusted puss ripped from this scab.
Only to re-open this wound that drips of mad.
Trickle. The infection passing as the blood flows.
Over my skin, the acid begins to slow.
As my skin twists and tuns, so does the blood.
Crackling. Flaking off of my awful cut.
Another wasted love, unable to think of.
The sadness is too much. Lonely again, cut.
Another wasted love, unable to think of.
The line continues through past my throat.
Another wasted love, unable to think of.
Causing cold blue. Here, take my coat.
I can't go on. Stop writing she says.
My love grows old. Today, no more love.
Another wasted love, unable to think of.

Regretful Touches

Look me straight into these eyes and tell me.
Inhaling your burden, you made it mine to see.
Reading the scripture of your mind, you beg and plead.
Don't. Please don't,
See me.
See who I am and what I can do.
Rip you from all your love and nothing new.
No where to begin in our new world.
I look past it all, only seeing you girl.
Dissect the pain out of my head.
But not seeing a reason, from what you said.
Damn the structure I've built. Burn this from inside.
The barbed blade rutting my wrist, soon turns to suicide.
Take one look at my shaking body. Cry.
I want to see these tears falling from your eyes.
Holding you. I've written so much for the feeling.
Now, the flames singe my skin. Layers peeling.
The sodium extracting from my sweat.
Leaving me hotter an hotter, making myself regret,
ever touching you.

Flowing Essence

I raise my arm, seeking the jacket that holds your sacred essence.
The fragrance slowly illuminating the light around me.
Bringing out the best scent, wile your light helps me see.
Inhaling your addicting coke-like properties.
Left behind to stop me in my tracks, so I can sense thee.
Far and near, I seek the odor of my thy I need.
My nose resting upon the sleeve containing.
Making sure it's still there, and not degrading.
Making sure your still with me, and not detaining,
the love I speak.

Am Really

When my mind falls below the debt of sin,
you seem to catch me before the devil can begin.
My soul deserving of misery.
Already holding hardship, you kiss me softly.
Lips flowing with the lighting of angels.
Against mine, my love then unstable.
Passing through the gates to heaven,
exactly what we wished for at eleven eleven.
Holding the edge of my lips, soundless and calm.
Your essence runs into mine, as if nothing wrong.
Reach my imperfections and leave me.
My prediction wrong, I realize surrounding.
Surrounding your revealing heart,
only to be awaken as you aren't.
Sleep. Let the passion impose past you.
Love will last forever like it shouldn't do.
My nameless pains reach the feet of your own.
Sudden realization of me, but you've always known.
Don't leave me. Sooth this pain only you can heal.
Only in my dreams. That is what I choose to feel.
I only hope we stay, in this in this pain to soon reveal.

Love Index

Grass slowing crunching beneath my jeans.
No longer walking but simply doing what I came to do.
I look right up into the clouds, wile listening to the birds scream.
Finding the perfect mate, the birds fly as a new.
A new couple. A new favorite bird. A new friend.
They fly into light blue oblivion to look for nothing but the end.
The sweet delicacy of their small pounding hearts.
Get them through love and life, soon to depart.
Looking past peripheral, I see the smile of a goddess.
Smiling back I notice our Lord brought this.
Gave us this happiness and time together.
To think our relation over and enjoy each other.
Turning my head to see your sweet face clearer than ever.
Drawing my arm to touch your glowing hand.
Looking right into the beauty that is your eyes, so high in demand.
Every want and need in the world disappearing into nothing.
We relax our backs to find a slow stop at the ground.
From a different perspective, nothing.
From our own hearts, we know every bit and sound.
Every piece of each other, we tell vividly to ourselves.
We peer into each others mind, only to stop at assumptions.
The eager thought rebounds in our mind, our heart swells.
We both dwell past this thought as our imagination runs.

I
love
you

The words index into my soul to find feelings behind each file.
Replacing the current file only to make sweeter sense.
Seeping into your smile, we pass accomplishments.
Each of us sitting up, we still exchange glances.
You look deeper, beyond my pupils, to find chances.
Chances to show further affection. Chances to show love.
Both knowing the right direction, to assume of.
Slowly but eagerly, we extend our necks to find soft lips.
Releasing every bit of normality to face the rawness of a kiss.
Wanting more, and getting it. Nothing to fear. Nerves left.
With you, my thoughts clear to be replaced by theft.
My heart stolen by, not the kiss, but what the kiss means.
Look me in the eyes after, and tell me your mental screams.
Your mental words and your real thinking.
Tell me of your thumping heart, and why its beating so proud.
Why does the sound keep repeating? Seeming so very loud.
The continuation of love and adulation steaming from your breath.
Slowly creeping up my lips as the whisper ends the rest.
Touch my chest with your fingers and head so you can rest.
My arm holding your waist to keep you close.
We sit for hours under our own control, both so close.

I
love
you